to be or not to be

i wrote something really good to start this blog with, describing how i feel, venting out my frustations, showing off the creative side of me......but it got deleted, i couldn't even save it as a draft....and it happened twice to me. what? why? twice? yes! twice! whom should i bestow my curses upon? no i wont curse anyone in the first post of my blog.....my blog,my own blog.....i mentioned in the ones that got deleted that this blog is going to have a sense of me.....unlike the other two which i created on the insistence (hate the politeness of this word) of my teachers.......hope this is the last time m writing this!
ok.. lets think that the post got deleted....twice....becauce it "wasnt meant to be" on my blog, and be contented....simple. m i satisfied now?? wouldn't like to answer that question! i also wrote about sindbad ,and the box of my mind, a big lock, key, marriana trench, ocean....n dreams. dont wanna write it again, the fun is gone! but never mind here's my first not so cheerful as it should've been post!